Things I'm Afraid to Tell You

Right. I know, I know... i've been slightly M.I.A over the course of a few months. You know how it goes, life happens and all that jazz. Lately, the universe has seemingly veered me down a path in life I never dreamed I would venture in the foreseeable future, and therefore has forced me to confront a reality I thought I was already living in, and occupying my time and energy.

I want to share something a little more deep than what I normally would. See, up until now, I never actually realised that all the choices I have made in my life, all the goals I achieved, and the people I have in my circle... all of that has been everything I have ever wanted for my life. When I look back and reflect on the decisions I have made, they were what I wished for, and I never knew that I had sent these requests to the universe and that they gave me a chance to create the world I have shaped for myself to this day. With that said, I have also chosen to let the world see what I want them to see, and that everything is perfect, when in truth, i'm human, and i'm not perfect.

So when I came across this blog post titled "Things I'm Afraid to Tell You", I was humbled and could relate to it so much, I wanted so much to do this too. It was posted in May of 2012, but whatevs, still a great post I want to participate in. With that, I hope at least one person who reads mine can relate as well.

So here 's a glimpse of things I wouldn't openly admit haha...

If I had to spend the rest of my life alone, I honestly would not be afraid. There's a difference between being "alone" and "lonely", and I know i'd never feel lonely because I am constantly occupied with my time. And if I were to ever be "unhappy", then i'd rather be unhappy alone, then be unhappy with someone.

I don't completely love myself. I always thought I did, however a friend of mine recently made me realise that I actually don't. This is something I am working towards changing, because I believe in order to give to those you love, you need to love all of you.

I often let friendships fade. Don't get me wrong, the friends I have right now mean the world to me. Sometimes though, I feel I don't work hard enough to keep a friendship going, and then I find myself making new friends to keep that cycle going.

When it comes to love, my heart is closed. It's completely hard to open up when it comes to relationships, because there's more at stake I feel.

I really, truly believe I am not from this world :P I honestly do. And the more I soul search, the more my belief makes sense :)

I don't like Beyonce. 

xox